reading old texts from you saying how we can work shit out, and that you needed me, also the first time you said i love you and seemed like you really meant it.

this is all bullshit.

i was the only one who would put up with all your bullshit, see through your fucked up ways and still loved you and accepted you. like isn’t that was love is supposed to be?

accepting and non-judgemental of someone?

what does it mean to you?

how have you changed?

did you go back to her and your old ways?

have you matured?

do you think of ever coming back to me?

questions that are constantly running through my head.

don’t doubt for a second that i don’t miss you everyday, i do. you’re the only person i can talk to that would make me laugh so hard my ribs hurt, on a daily basis. the only one who would make me so upset and i can forget the next minute. the only one who had the power to make me melt just by saying hello.

i remember this one time when you doubted that i loved you/fell in love with you and to tell you the truth that hurt and if you ever come across this, i’m just letting you know, that it wasn’t a lie, i did fall you for you and it took me awhile to realize i was in love with you, i mean who wants to admit that they fell for a complete dick and would take him back anytime, anywhere, any day.

it was all very sweet what you said on new years yet, i don’t know .. i hope it wasn’t all a lie.

honestly, i just want you or someone else new to come and sweep me off my feet, asap but it doesn’t work that way. i wish i can sometimes forget you. it’s not happening anytime soon, and i guess that’s just the way the cookie crumbles.